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Wishes for 2015

I've successfully finished my degree. The last two years of it have been especially stressfull.

Now that I've got the Bachelor's Degree in Information Science, I'm looking for a new job. I like my current job okay, it's just that I feel underchallenged. And with no challenge from my studies, I'm downright bored sometimes. The problem is that there are very few jobs in the field that I'm even close to qualified for, are in Zurich and surrounding area, and offer a 60-100% job, so that I could live on it. So far I've exactly sent off one application. I feel trapped in a holding pattern and I want to do something, but I can't.

My love life is still non-existant. I think the older I get, the more cynical I get. My life is good without a partner, it's just sometimes I wish there was someone to share my life with. And I've dipped my toes into online dating, but they either can't spell, read or have age ranges that cuts off at 5 years younger than them. Meanwhile I get hit on by guys 50 years or older. I just find that creepy. To me, it just shows that they want someone that adores them, but could never challege them. As I want a relationship with an equal, not a guy whose ego I need to prop up, they are definitely not for me. Online dating platforms have just been depressing me.


Family drama

My sister is pregnant and getting married in little more than a week. Of course, this calls for family drama. Apparently she didn't invite all of our aunts and uncles. This has led to my grandmother and one aunt, who was invited because she's her godmother, to decline the invitation in solidarity. I get their reasons, but on the other hand, that particular grandmother has exactly 3 grandkids. She's 86 years old and it's not likely that my brother or me are getting married soon. So, she's missing her wedding for that... But while I adore the aunt that is my sister's godmother, she did basically ruin my sister's 30th birthday party because she started a fight with my sister's groom to be and then dramatically flounced off. So maybe it's for the best if they are not there.

I've been feeling emotionally out of sorts recently. My emotions are all over the place since my grandfather died in 5 weeks ago. All the talk about the wedding and pregnancy (a friend is also pregnant) has also led me to contemplate the sad state of my love life. It's the perfect storm of unprocessed grief, coming down from a stressful year of studying and being faced with how much I'd like to find someone. It puts me on edge and makes me prone to cry at a moment's notice. Basically I'd love a real vacation where I don't have to think about school stuff at all and just read lot's of books someplace nice. Unfortunately, that can't happen anytime soon. This summer, during semester break, I get to do a project for school. Because stressing me out for 9 1/2 months wasn't enough, they had to do it all year round. It means I have been working 100% since the beginning of June and will do so til the end of August. It's more responsibility and more expectations from my employer during the project. So yay, more stress on top of being stressed. Can it be Fall 2014 already, please?



So, there is this huge project I have to do for school next summer during my semester break. And it's basically a gigantic pain in the ass to organize. I get to spend my semester break working my ass off for school, after just having spent a year working my ass off for school. It's great.

It looks like I can do it at my current employer, which would make things just so much easier. There are several ideas for what I could do and tomorrow I have a meeting with the big boss about it. There's a small hitch in the whole thing: I need to spend a certain amount of hours on this project and I can't do it timewise doing only 2 days/week for 10 weeks. Because my school clearly didn't think the concept of part-time students and what amounts to 32 work days through. I'm hoping to persuade them to be able to reduce my hours at work for the duration of the semester break. It's a reasonable proposal I think: instead of working my normal job 3 days/week, I'd do 2 days normal work and 3 days work for the project. Wish me luck, mostly because the alternative is making me stressed already.

Semester breaks are awesome!

I've been on semester break since the end of June. And the saying "Time flies when you're having fun" certainly seems true. I think we're about halfway through it. Now it's just 3 weeks til I leave for my vacation in Turkey. And as soon as I return from that the semester will have started again. On Tuesday, I hung out with Barbara (someone I study with). I haven't seen any of the people I study with since our last exam. But it does seem like everybody else is not hanging out much either. I think we see each other so much during the year that we spent summers far away from everything that has to do with school.

I've been reading a lot. I started reading the Dresden Files series. I'm on Book 10 already. Around book 4 or so Harry Dresden behaved like an idiot a lot, but I really loved the last few books. I think they get better and more complex the longer the series gets on. I've also read "Starcrossed" and "Dreamless" by Josephine Angelinni. It's YA, will be a trilogy (that seems like a major thing right now) and it's has greek mythology mixed in. I liked it a lot. "Insurgent", the second book of the Divergent series, was only so so. It picked up at the end, but in the middle for long stretches the main character behaved like a moron.


Dear LJ, I've been cheating on you

I've been writing a Wordpress Blog. But don't worry, it's strictly for school purposes. We have to maintain a blog for a whole semester for "infomation society, -ethics, politics". Our subject is SOPA and ACTA. It's in German, but if you want to read it anyway, here it is. Or here's a semi-decent online translator.

School has been trying to kill me since the start of the new semester, yet again. I still love it, but I could do with less presentations and paper writing. In the next 3 weeks, I have to plan a lesson and interview a person for about an hour for a survey. I'm gonna be glad when it is the middle of April and the worst is over. But on the upside, this weekend, I can and will take it slow and relax for once.

In a couple of hours, I will see the Hunger Games and I'm very looking forward to it.


Slowly getting better

I managed to survive exam week. The day after I went to two seperate birthday parties. One was more of a tea/coffee and cake affair, but the other was a drinks in a bar/clubbing all night thing. Because I wasn't tired for once, I was dancing all night and took the first bus home. It was fun dancing, I don't do it enough.

What wasn't fun was the flu I got not 48 hours later. I spent the next 6 days in bed. I had a 10 days off school between the fall and spring semester and I was sick most for most of them. Great, but it gets better. When I returned to work on Monday, my wallet got stolen, containing all my cards and the train tickets I'd already bought for Chur. So my evening consisted of calling to block my cards and going to the local police station to report it stolen. Not what I needed, especially because I still got a cough, so I didn't feel a 100%. I feel naked without my cards.

I survived this week and the four days in Chur. Part of the days were a complete waste of time. But there were bright spots: Information/Media Law was way more interesting than expected. The prof loves to hear himself talk, but he's entertaining. As usual the start of the semester is very demotivating, because you haven't even started and they tell you all the presentations you have to hold and the papers you have to write and so forth.

On a positive note, we got our grades back. I passed the Assessment-Level! Yay! And I managed a passing grade in Information Retrieval, the one exam I really felt I screwed up. And I rocked Programming. I'm really happy with my grades. Now off to semester 4!


Can this be over soon?

This week is particularly stressfull for me. I have 5 end of the semester exams. Today was a very frustrating day. And I fear tomorrow will not be much better. But at least tomorrow at 3 o'clock this whole thing is over (for the next 4 or 5 months).

I had my first exam Wednesday, which went okay. All in all, it's just about 20% of my total grade, so I'm not worried. Today I had two exams. And they both went terribly. What was especially helpful was the massive headache I had the whole day. The one in the morning is also not much of a concern, it's 50% of my grade in the subject and I'm pretty sure that I have at least a A-, if not an A in the other 50%. The one this afternoon concerns me more, since the grade of the exam = my grade in the subject. I hope the prof is lenient when correcting it, otherwise I'll end up having a D and I need a C.

Tomorrow we have another 2 exams, 1 in the morning, the other in the afternoon. Thankfully 1 is open book, so I don't have to cram everything from that into my brain as well. Both are difficult subjects: Programming and Information Management. I fear Information Management more, but Programming could be tricky as well, depending on what question the prof poses. Basically I hope that I manage passing grades in all of them. And I wish it was 20 hours later and over.

I'm so tired, I wish I could go to sleep now.

So, I've been reading....

I've been reading. Here are my thoughts on some of the books:

The Name of the Star by Maureen Johnson: I liked it a lot. It's YA, but for once, there's no annoying love triangle. It's about a teenage girl who goes to a boarding school in London as an exchange student. While she's there, some murders that have s lot of similarities to Jack the Ripper start happening. It has supernatural elements, but nothing too heavy. It's well-written.

A Discovery of Witches by Deborah Harkness: It's not bad. It has some similarities to Twilight, though. It's basically if Twilight had been written by someone who could actually write and does research. There's a lot of stuff going on and the writing is dense. The plot doesn't just show up 2/3 in like in Twilight. It sucks that it's Book 1 of a trilogy. But yes, there's also the Vampire watching her sleep thing and him being patronizing. And her tolerating that and thinking that she was nothing special, but of course, she's a very special snowflake, as the book goes on. The whole "Her falling in love with him" wasn't earned, either. All of sudden, she's head over heels for him and never doubts that, even though it basically starts a war and puts herself and all the people she loves at risk. But those were minor quibbles in a reasonably entertaining book where the characters were actual characters, not just empty shells for the reader to project themselves into.

The secret life of dresses by Erin McKean: It's chicklit, but bittersweet, because there's a character death. And it's more of coming of age story than a love story. I liked it. All the dresses described in it sound lovely and make me want to have a closet like the main character.



I don't like winter. I feel like I could sleep all the time.

Today I had brunch with two of my friends at a restaurant close to where I live. It's a bit on the expensive side, but the food was good.

I continue reading like it's going out of style. I finished the 10 or 11 books of the Diane Fry/Ben Cooper Series by Stephen Booth. I also finished the Night Huntress Series by Jeaniene Frost. And I'm on the second book of the "Mortal Instruments" Series. I have to say, I'm getting sick of the supernatural series with a love triangle thing, even though in this it's acutally just one love interest, the other one turns out to be her brother. That's one way of mixing it up, I suppose...

Knowing that Jamie Campbell Bower is playing Jace in the adaptation is marring my enjoyment a bit. I don't think he's attractive and after seeing a couple of episodes of Camelot, I doubt his acting abilities.


I'm back

I haven't posted in ages. Studying has taken it's toll.

In the last couple of months, I :
-survived semester 1 & 2 in my quest to get a bachelor's degree in Information science.
-turned 31 (I'm old :-))
-went on vacation to Copenhagen & Sweden
-bought myself a Kindle

The icon is from my current obsession. I watched Downton Abbey online, then bought the Season 1 DVD's and I seriously ship Matthew/Mary hardcore. They need to get together and stop breaking my heart every episode. Last Sunday, I stayed up til 2 o'clock to watch the newest episode, just because I couldn't wait to see it.

The third semester has started. I'm mentoring a group of first semesters. And two weeks into the semester, I'm already developing a serious hate of the constant group work. I get the uses, I just don't like it.

I'm very much in love with my Kindle. I read so much more now, I've started to read even in the short time between me getting off the bus and arriving at work. And the text-to-speech is very practical for the times, when you have to do the dishes, but want to keep reading. Obviously, it's not the same thing as an audiobook. I doubt for example that the robotic voice of the Kindle would have made me cry the way Stephen Fry did with "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows".